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Thursday, May 31, 2007
but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

I`ve got better things to do than let you walk all over me.

3:04:00 PM

Tuesday, May 29, 2007
but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

I couldn`t help but reply this guy in friendster called Happy Guy Man who apparently says he is very shuaii in his friendster primary photo`s caption. YOU KNOW WHY?! CAUSE HE SENT ME THIS;

"yo baby..
how life over there??
hmm when can jio u out for a movie ??"

!!!!!!!!!! I got so pek chek beyond words I replied;

"Please horhh don`t fucking call me baby. WHO THE FUCK gave you the right? You act as if you and me very shou liddat horh? DREAM ON LA, you like kanna buang liddat you offer me a billion dollars just to make friend with you no doubt I`ll turn down the offer FLAT, so what makes you think I would even want to be seen with YOU? I wonder why the hell you`re so damn big headed with a cock sucking face like that. I suggest you should just slink your tail in between your legs and crawl away, dejected like the dog you are if you still have some self respect left. Byeeeees."

You can see I`m trying to be polite here.

Anyway, I`m so sick and tired of being treated like crap by that guy. I can`t take this shit anymore. Looking at couples outside being all lovey dovey makes me want to start crying. But I can`t possibly just burst into tears in a shopping centre right? I`VE BEEN FUCKING PLAYED. Seriously, it`s like i`m giving off an aura that screams, "HURT ME!! I`M A SURE THING!" Maybe it`s retribution from Someone high and almighty up above from all the guys I`ve played last time. But Lord, don`t you think I`m hurt ENOUGH already? I never made the guys I`ve played fall so deeply in love with me, I NEVER ASKED THEM FOR ANYTHING. But you know what? I let that guy hit that four times! Screw it.

9:33:00 PM

Monday, May 28, 2007
but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

Just look at this friendster message this unknown fuck sent me la;

"mind to giv me ur msn?? so we can chat there ma.....mayb u dunno but i swear.....i swear that i miss u everyday even at night, when i was sleeping.......u ar my life, my baby jesus even as an angel tat protect me..."

FUNNY HORH. I can bet on my cheebye that there is not an ounce of truth in that message at all la. Please la horh, want peng wei also peng a little more realistic abit larhh. He`s trying to lie to a super pro peng wei kia. Auntie, even though I might be much younger than you, there`s no doubt that my experience in the art of falsifying is in a much more higher realm than yours. I was already lying straight to people`s faces without so much as blinking an eye when I first learned how to talk in proper sentences. It`s my means of survival in that family of mine that I don`t even think it should be called a family.

It`s guys like these who make me bitter and cynical more and more everyday.
That ass, KuanChew also sent me a friendster message asking me for my msn. I mean wtf lorh, HE TALKED TO ME ON MSN JUST THE OTHER DAY.

I`m so unsure of whether I should be laughing my ass off now or crying.

I hate guys to be leading me on. If he doesn`t want me why the hell can`t he just tell me that and get it over and done with, instead of giving me false hopes every now and then. This is so much worse than a normal breakup.

I also hate people who send me testimonials that go, "HI!! THANKS FOR ADDING!"
Ninabu.. I never even bother to take a glance at their profile when they added me, still can so happily thank me for adding them. I so did not add them. I don`t add people. I only accept friend requests. Honggan la.

11:57:00 PM

Sunday, May 27, 2007
but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

I want a baby girl.
A cute little angel overflowing with sweetness.
And if I do have a baby one day, I would want Lydia to be there in the delivery room with me, not my unknown future husband.
So I can claw her skin off.

8:35:00 PM

Saturday, May 26, 2007
but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

Just now in the afternoon. an ambulance and a police car arrived outside my house.
Nosy neighbours came out to see what the fuss was all about in the typical daily life of the Teo family.
My first time ridding in an ambulance wasn`t as much fun as I had thought. Freaking siren was so damn ear piercing, I could swear when they`ve switched it off all I`ve heard was a loud humming for a few seconds.

I`ll walk a thousand miles
if I could just see you tonight.

11:14:00 PM

but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

I hate....

The people in friendster are seriously starting to get on my last nerve. I might just delete my friendster account for good.

1:47:00 PM

Wednesday, May 23, 2007
but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

I so have to record this down on my blog. It`s just too peculiar.
Yesterday our class went to East Coast Beach for this post exam activity that involved building somewhat seemingly gigantic sandcastles in a group.
When me and Lydia went to collect water the second time for the construction of our group`s sandcastle, I saw this bright coloured stuff submerged in a passing wave near the shore, and just as it was about to recede back into the sea, a natural instinct made me reach out and grabbed it.
It turned out to be a fully intact, genuine, Singapore $5 note. I know $5 isn`t much but I was having some sort of freaked out sensation so I decided to keep it.
The note remained stuffed in my bag for quite some time before I had this weird jolt just now and suddenly remembered about it. I keep having this weird, excited and ecstatic feeling.
No darlings, I ain`t over exagerrating. In fact, I`m trying to report my feelings about this subtly.
And I have this urgent need to bet the last few numbers in 4D.
My father saw something out of this and said he will bet it tomorrow.
Those people who knows me really fucking well know that my sixth sense is super strong.
Maybe there`s an evil force behind this....

I don`t know just how much he has seen. Hopefully not my recent messages, or I would get screwed over. Because knowing him, he would most certainly expose my secrets and maybe the huge-ass lies I made to other people.
I hate him so much.

Speaking of hate, I absolutely hate those serial philanderers. They deserve to have their balls ripped out from them and grinded into fine pulp.
I really wonder whether that guy is or not. SO LONG NO CONTACT LEH. What the fucking escargot and mushroom salad la.

Just another thing to a different person.
I don`t change for anyone. If you can`t accept me the way I am then I suggest you get your nose and ass out of my business and my life. What you see is what you get.
If you think I`m going to grovel at your feet to change your opinion of me then you have another think coming. I`ve done alot of grovelling in my past and I`m so fucking sick and tired of it trying to be someone I`m not just to please everyone else. I`ve started living for myself the day me and ChunSiang broke up, not everyone else.
Since then I`ve found my life looking up and turning for the better. So I`m not going to let anyone take that kind of happiness and satisfaction I get so rarely away from me.

10:23:00 PM

Monday, May 21, 2007
but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

know what today is?
the 1st month me and him erm.. "jiao wang"-ed.
i highly doubt he even remembers the seraphic girl called Cheryl Teo la. =_=

omg i just found out that Ciara`a a hermaphrodite, she said so on the oprah show that she was borned with 2 sex organs present.
ewww sick. but she`s so pretty and hot.

9:33:00 PM

Thursday, May 17, 2007
but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

I don`t know if it`s just me or whether the guys in friendster are getting more and more irritating.
like for example, there was this guy who sent me this friendster message;
"can send mi yr msn hotmail
how are u
can give mi yr number ????
can mah huh"

Wtf la and he`s not the only one. These kind of guys are sending me similar messages everyday.
Yeah right, as if I would give my contact number to any Tom, Dick or Harry. Please lorh I don`t even know you la and you expect me to give you my contact number? Fuck off please, I`m not so desperate for companionship.

I wonder why the hell are they so sure of themselves. Alot of them are like URGGGHH la.
And there was this guy who calls himself "Lawrence Lucifer" sent me a comment that simply went, "I love you".

I feel so fucking sad for our generation.

8:52:00 PM

but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

Ohmiigosshh this is so unreal.
How the heck did I get an A2 for my maths? I used to score single digit marks for my Maths Term Test papers last time de lorh.
I feel so lightheaded. Maybe this is all a dream. Or maybe because the doctor prescribed that kind of medicine with an incredibly high dosage.

11:44:00 AM

Wednesday, May 16, 2007
but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

I`m not going to school tomorrow again.
3 days MC le. Feel so guilty pang sehhing lydia..
Even my maid got it liao. sian ji pua.

"he cooks yum yum baked rice."
I can`t believe just this one guy can make me feel so damn insecure.


I`m going insane to all the stress.
My dumbass father wants me to have tuition 5 times a week during the school holidays.
Motherfucking asshole doesn`t think i`m stress enough. Let`s see what he`ll think when I start slashing my wrists again.

I really can`t cope with all these.. There`s just too many things bothering me, I just try not to show it. I`m on the verge of breaking down already.
Why the hell are there tears in my eyes now?

10:11:00 PM

Tuesday, May 15, 2007
but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

This reminds me of a poem i used to recite a long time ago;
2 little monkeys jumping on the bed,
one fell down and broke his head.
Mama called the doctor and the doctor said, "No more little monkeys jumping on the bed".

Darren, Derek, Me, Randy, Zhan Han and my parents` temperatures are all sky high.
Darren`s hospitalised now. He was the one who spread the illness to all of us.
The doctor told us that the DNA strand of this virus is somewhat similar to that of SARS and if it mutates a little bit more, we would all tio the fatal disease.
Huh. Guess what? If that happens, the 7 of us would be the guilty ones to bring SARS back to Singapore.
we`re soooo fucked.

10:55:00 PM

but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

just when my life was starting to rock for the first time, i get the flu from hell.
woke up early this morning around 4am to find that my fever had escalated to 39 degrees.
couldn`t get back to sleep cause of the throbbing of my head.
so i went down to the living room where i switched on the television and threw up some brown and bloody vomit beside the sofa.
after that, felt abit better le so went back to sleep.
was awaken by the sound of my handphone ringing and Jaime asking me why i didn`t come to school.
i`m going to be missing school for 2 days, and i`m not happy about it. i would rather go to school to pei Lydia and while my time away in the hot sun, launching some stupid plastic bottles into the air than stay at home and feel like crap the whole day. i feel so sorry for myself.
lonely, miserable girl that no one gives a damn.

where is Dapoh when i need him the most?

11:39:00 AM

Sunday, May 13, 2007
but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

wtf that was like so goddamn.... WRONG.
i can`t explain what i mean in this blog, it`s just too twisted, not to mention sick.
things are going to be really different and tensed between the 2 of us now.
still, it was fun while it lasted.. so deliciously thrilling.
being bored and feeling cold is a dangerous combination when female and male hotblooded youths are left alone with their opposite sex.

7:04:00 AM

Wednesday, May 09, 2007
but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

Puff, the magic dragon is beckoning.
i`m returning to my old ways without you with me.

2:11:00 PM

Sunday, May 06, 2007
but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

HAH. at last that pubor chunsiang got in touch with me over my stuff liao.
because andykorkor told his campmate to tell chunwei to pester chunsiang for it.
then at last chunsiang contacted me.
that bitch.

andy got lovebite. i wonder is who give de. lucky him.
just a few hours ago i went to watch spiderman 3 with some retards then i saw a couple dressed in qing nu zhuang. SIBEI CUTE LA!! throughout the whole movie they were soooooo close lorhh, smoochsmooch, baobao. ARGH. there were so many lovey-dovey couples at J8 just now, it made me feel a pang.

lydia wrote in her blog something about seeing a chiobuh with a super dupa big bouquet of roses in her hand, hugging a shuaiister. i have to admit, even though their actions make me smile most of the times, i goddamn envy these people.

i want that kind of fairytale romance too. :'(

1:04:00 AM

Saturday, May 05, 2007
but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

went out last night.
hahaha i`m sure lydia knows what i mean, she`s oh-so-familiar with my lifestyle now.
i tend to seek others for comfort when i feel neglected and used.
i`m not sluttish, far from that actually, i`m just that kind of girl that require lots of attention.

yesterday morning got really high with lydia and sally over a bottle of vodka.
fun fun fun.

2:43:00 PM

Friday, May 04, 2007
but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

my insecurities are back.
that`s why i soooooo hate falling in love. maybe i could be just over-reacting but throughout my 15 years on this earth, my intuition has never failed me.
and it`s telling me something which i don`t like.
i don`t want to listen to it, i don`t want to believe it, although part of me hears it i refuse to accept it.
tell me it isn`t true, tell me it`s just an illusion, that it`ll all go away.
please assure me that this clairvoyance of mine is due to me just being paranoid.
it`s "i love you" then stab stab stab, "i love you", stab stab stab, the warm and fuzzy feeling that had developed so strongly resulting in late-night tears and involving the kitchen knife, repeating itself all over and over again.
will this deja vu never end?

did i lose my love to someone better?
to sweet beginnings to bitter endings.

9:37:00 PM

Wednesday, May 02, 2007
but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away

"Watching her saunter up the path with a lit cigarette clamped firmly between her index and middle fingers was watching sexual artistry in motion. The divine fantasy object of every teenage boy`s wet dreams, she reigns supreme, the Queen of Mean. Notorious for having a personality and looks of that of an incubus, the dangerous sexuality she posessed was well honed and extremely lethal, it screamed "CAUTION" all over, but boys still find themselves being attracted to her like a bee is to honey."

Beauty fades with age but idiocy is forever.

1:55:00 PM


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