Friday, May 04, 2007
♥ but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away ♥
my insecurities are back.
that`s why i soooooo hate falling in love. maybe i could be just over-reacting but throughout my 15 years on this earth, my intuition has never failed me.
and it`s telling me something which i don`t like.
i don`t want to listen to it, i don`t want to believe it, although part of me hears it i refuse to accept it.
tell me it isn`t true, tell me it`s just an illusion, that it`ll all go away.
please assure me that this clairvoyance of mine is due to me just being paranoid.
it`s "i love you" then stab stab stab, "i love you", stab stab stab, the warm and fuzzy feeling that had developed so strongly resulting in late-night tears and involving the kitchen knife, repeating itself all over and over again.
will this deja vu never end?
did i lose my love to someone better?
to sweet beginnings to bitter endings.
♥ 9:37:00 PM ♥
