Friday, March 20, 2009
♥ but when the rhapsody plays; it takes my breath away ♥
I've had a really shitty day today. Don't be fooled by the above photo that I'm happy, it was taken a year ago. Started the morning with massive stomach cramps that got me writhing around my bed with pain, even then my father still forced me to go to school, what an unfeeling, money-faced asshole, he didn't even ask how severe the stomach cramps were like how any other normal, caring father would.
Luckily the cramps subsided on my way to school, if not, I would've been super cranky and bitchy in class. The excruciating pain started up again when I got home after lessons were over. Why is God torturing me?
Xiao V came to find me at night because he wanted to talk to me. I refused to come down from my room and instead, smsed him that it was over. I felt so suffocated with him, I am only 17 years old and I have no freedom! I'm not going to let my youth waste away! I'm already getting enough of this kind of shit with my parents that I'm soooo close to breaking down and attempting suicide again, and like it's not enough, let's add some more unduly stress and restriction in the form of a boyfriend so that Cheryl might go mental and hahaha-we-can-have-her-all-to-ourselves!
Screw you all motherbangers who refuse me my freedom. You people are all fucked in the head. I'M FUCKING 17 YOU CUNTS! WHAT'S WITH THE 12-YEAR-OLD KIDDY CURFEW?!
On a happier note, I have an excuse for myself to splurge all my money on shopping. After all, retail therapy is so much cheaper than paying to see a psychiatrist or a counselor.
Yay! Go on fucking parental cunts and make Cheryl suicidal!
♥ 10:53:00 PM ♥
